Enough about the dog…

Let’s talk about the important stuff…

skiing.

This month has been unfortunate reality check month for me.  I want to go skiing this season.  I want to go out west to do it.  I would really like to be skiing in some new Monster 82s or maybe a Rossi Zenith (6 or 10 oversize is fine).   Heck, I’d be giddy with an Atomic Nomad Whiteout.

I’m so excited about skiing, that I’m exercising, something I’m decidedly NOT excited about.

So the reality check is this.  I have new hardwood for flooring in my garage, waiting to be installed.  I have it there as it was an incredible bargain for an amazing product with a killer warranty that will have a notable increase on the value of my home.  I have a house that I can’t sell in this market, and a new car that was a gift from my grandma and dad, whom I love dearly.

I have a job that can pay off my debt in a slow and steady wins the race kind of a way, but not in a manner which allows room for new debt.

I am feeling trapped and it’s getting worse as snow makes it to Montana and the northwestern corner of North Dakota.  Snow is closer, debt is looming…

I am trying incredibly hard to be an adult when in reality I want all the fun flexibility of financial security without having built the foundation for it into my life.

Bottom line?

I am being a spoiled brat.

Now that I look at my predicament I can see that I have most likely been a spoiled brat for the better part of my adult life.  I know of no other person my age that could take a 2 year sabbatical from work to do family stuff and then rebuild a business that may or may not have worked out.  I did so without much savings and only the knowledge that it was ultimately the only answer I could live with for myself.

So.

I will take the shifts at my part time job, even when I don’t want to.  I will consider working every other week at the hill rather than buying a pass.  I will continue on my path of stingy living and ski on my skis from last year.

I will not like it and there will be sulking if I don’t get out west again this year.

Says me.

S